Balance. I think about that word a lot. I think about it in relation to the small things, but these days that buzz word is taking on more meaning.
We often say that at the start of a new year we want to start over and start fresh, learn from the year before and fix all those things that we did wrong or could do better. In fact this year, like many others, I creative a list of goals for 2014. I tried to keep them simple, attainable. But as 2014 approached and unfolded I’ve been thinking of a new goal. Balance.
I’m talking, striving for balance across all aspects of life. The kind of balance that comes from knowing who you are and standing up for who you want to be. Not making excuses, but making choices that align with that vision.
I think I’ve had this feeling in my gut for a long time. This need to be who I am and not who others perceive me to be. But I have never had a clear path to get there. Now I am starting to figure it out. For too long I thought I had to be one thing and excel in one area, but that’s just not who I am. I am a balanced woman and that is okay, because I can strive to be great at that.
My life is a juxtaposition and that is how I like it. Moving forward I hope to embrace who I am, rather than striving to be someone I am not.
I want to be strong, but not rude.
I want to be kind, but not weak.
I want to be bold, but not a bully.
I want to be humble but not shy.
I want to be confident, but not arrogant.
I want to be and not seem to be.
I’m not saying it’s going to be easy, my excitement and enthusiasm often leads me to pursue one thing with all of my energy, but I am going to strive for balance.
It is going to be hard, but it’s going to be worth it. And as always… I’m going to tell you all about it.